I have been writing this post in my head for months now.  After a few sweet friends asked when I was going to give an update in this space, I decided now is the time to actually publish my thoughts here.

I am just under 4 months out from my sleeve gastrectomy.  I have lost 37 pounds since surgery and 68 pounds total.  I am, to say the least, very thankful for this tool in my life. Here is some writings from my journey early on:

The first few weeks and months post-op have been a series of good and bad days, strung along much like a roller coaster! I find myself very emotional. Mood swings in this first month just following surgery.  After the newness and excitement of my new stomach has gone, what I am left with was a liquid diet and a stubborn scale.  The doctors and nurses, as well as the seasoned folks in my bariatric support group, say do not weigh yourself.  Especially don’t weigh yourself often.

Friends, you might know that I am a bit stubborn.  I weigh myself. I am a recovering diet lifer and find it hard not to weigh frequently to check progress.  Not surprisingly, I find myself frustrated and weepy when the scale won’t move for days that drag into weeks. I am emotional around meal times. I love to feed people, nourishing them both physically and spiritually, around my table.  Immediately following my surgery, I could not prepare or participate in these meals.  Often the sight of certain foods or the smell of certain foods trigger nausea for me.  Along with the physical discomfort of being around the foods, there is emotional distance too.  I am learning to listen to my new body and there’s a whole new set of indicators to pay attention to. Getting used to paying attention to my body’s signals in the company of 5 little insatiable appetites and a meat and potatoes man is crazy hard!  This has been no small feat!

I am tracking my intake in an Excel file that my darlin’ nerdy husband created for me.  It has places for my fluid ounces intake, my grams of protein, vital signs, a place to check off all of the different vitamins and medicines needed post-operatively, minutes/type of exercise and a space to record any new symptoms or sensations. I keep this log religiously, recording each ounce as a hash mark and each bit of protein consumed! I monitor my blood pressure fairly closely because while I was hypertensive prior to surgery, my blood pressure has been elevated since surgery.  I highly recommend a log to visually remind you to do all the things necessary for a good recovery.

All of the preparation for the surgery coming from the medical group and the support group said that the majority of progress in those first weeks came in the form of inches.  I began seeing that my clothes were a little baggy.  That was very encouraging. Soon enough the pounds also starting melting off.

Generally, I feel pretty good most of the time. I am definitely so thankful I had this surgery!  I am grateful for my “sleeve!”